she never dies

It's been a crazy few weeks in the life, but there it is.

New Year's Resolutions. Which are pointless because I make resolutions about every three months, or as long as it takes me to get through one set to move on to the next.

I need to calm the hell down. Because really, it's quite obnoxious how much I worry about things that do not matter and that I honestly do not care about.

Be more appreciative of the people who give me everything. Because saying "Thank you" when someone compliments your hair is not the same as saying "Thank you" to the boy who flies out 800 miles with his own money last-minute to help you cope with your mother's illness and help with babysitting your annoying siblings are not the same thing. They aren't even close.

Learn how to make decisions. It's kind of a big deal throughout life, don't you think?

Write more. Hello.

Accept myself as being truly beautiful.

There it is. I miss you all very much. With that being said, life is so gorgeous that recently I've had to just look away to keep myself from tearing up. Sometimes I just let it happen. That's when it becomes beautiful.